Confidence noun: brave now, 1100 miles from my mistakes. I’m a new person, that’s in the past.
Anxiety noun: cripples me most days, caused by memories of addiction and the death it cast.
Rage verb: blame no one, but myself, the last to visit my ailing grandfather? My sick ass.
Remorse noun: feeling was non-existent at that time and he fell ill. Help? Too high to be asked.
Satisfaction noun: of saying goodbye? Simply bypassed.
Adoration verb: Now, a writer’s group, local authors. Professional editors. Finding the narrative tasked.
Confused adjective: sitting across the table, a grey-faced man. Similarities, held fast,
Denial noun: to my grandfather. How strange, and yet, this man. Doesn’t accept me. I’m an outcast.
Agitation noun: he never says hello, my grandfather’s doppelganger. His attitude: irritatingly sassed.
Conflicting adjective: one night, he turns and says, “I had a thought of you,” never would’ve guessed.
Surprise verb: “that you’ll be a famous author.” His words heard barely, just a whisper above the rest.
Amazement noun: smiling, he turns back. Pretending as if those words had never been broadcast.
Forgiveness noun: Is what I grant myself, as I accept the compliment to be of my grandfather’s. At last.